Right, so, about those missing blogs….

Remember when I said weekly blogs forever? (Aww) Yeah, that lasted about as long as my New Year’s resolution to drink more water

(spoiler: I forgot by January 3rd, but I am doing better this month thanks to a ridiculously wanky cup…).

Anyhoo…here’s what actually happened:

Week 1: “I’M A BLOGGER NOW! Look at me being all professional and shit!” Week 2: “This is fiiiine. I can absolutely do this every week.” Week 3: “Why does my brain feel like soup? Also, what day is it? Who am I again?” Week 4: complete system shutdown. Brain says ‘nope’.

So it turns out, weekly blogs with ADHD is like trying to put on a king sized duvet while someone’s chasing you with a hoover.

Technically possible, but why would you do that to yourself?

So here I am, three days late, sitting in my emotional support blanket burrito, finally admitting the truth:

I bit off more than my chaotic brain could chew.

And you know what? That’s okay. Because this is real life, not some Instagram highlight reel where everyone pretends they’ve got their shit together. (Do you really Sandra, do you really?)

The New Plan (Because By Brain Needs Plans So It Can Ignore Them Properly)

Monthly Deep Dives – One proper rambling post per month when my brain actually cooperates and tries to write proper shit. 

Random Chaos Drops – When something mental happens and I need to word-vomit it onto the internet (let’s be honest, this happens weekly anyway). Spoiler, I shall call them….Feral Blogs!! 

Behind-the-Scenes Reality – More of me admitting when I’m struggling instead of pretending I’m a functioning adult

Because here’s the thing – I started this blog  to break free from the niche cages and ‘proper’ blogs, to just write about real lift stuff. And ADHD life includes:

• Starting things with enthusiasm and then… ya know…waves hands vaguely

• Hyperfocusing on the wrong things (hello, 3-hour Wikipedia spiral about Victorian spoons)

• Having to adjust plans when your brain decides to go on strike and be a knobhead

What This Actually Means for You Beautiful Chumlin Chaos Gremlins:

You get the REAL me.

Not the “I’m a professional blogger who has her life together” me (because that person doesn’t exist and never did). Not the “look, here is my blog, it’s wearing a suit now” me (because my blg does not, in fact, wear a suit and never should have, sorry bloggy)

You get posts when I actually have something worth saying, not just because it’s Sunday and I’m supposed to, but because my brain is going wild on the page, or the voice note, whatever works.

You get to watch me figure this whole “being a human with a business” thing out in real time, complete with:

• Costume drama meltdowns

• Existential crises over prop tables (don’t ask)

• The ongoing saga of me vs. my website (the website is winning)

Side Note: Why I Actually Disappeared

….deeeeeep breath

Sooo, I’ve been doing this show, right? And between costume changes (137 of them, I counted, kinda), trying not to have panic attacks about flying cucumbers (it’s a long story), and general life chaos, my brain just kinda…fecked off.

Every time I sat down to write, my brain went: “Oh, you want to be creative? How about we worry about that thing from 2003 instead? That’ll be fun!”

So I hid. Like a hermit crab. But with more anxiety and fewer shells.  Well, I didn’t hide hide, but my poor little Chromie may have been hidden away while I took my focus to…not peopling

The Bit Where I Get Mushy (Skip If You’re Allergic to Feelings)

Thank you for sticking around while I figured out that I’m not built for weekly anything except maybe weekly Taskmaster binges.

Thank you for reading my ramblings about ADHD hangovers and toothpaste dispensers and all the other mental stuff that falls out of my brain.

And thank you for being okay with the fact that I’m still figuring this out as I go. You da bomb! (ahem)

So then, What’s Next?

More chaos, obviously. But sustainable chaos. The kind where I don’t forget to feed my children because I’m hyperfocused on blog formatting.

Speaking of which, I’m currently making some ADHD tracking journals because apparently my coping mechanism is making pretty things for other chaotic brains. They will hopefully be in shop soon if you fancy enabling my stationery addiction. (and if my brain gets over the fear and just uploads!)

So, blogs may not be regular, not all blogs will be in SEO suits with lots of pictures and stuff, but, i’ll still be here, and hopefully you will be too.

Right, I need to go find some clean pants and maybe remember what day it is.

TPFN, Kyra x

P.S. – Those two half-written blogs I mentioned? They’re still half-written. This is me accepting that some things don’t need finishing, and that’s okay too.

P.P.S. – My cat, Bob, has forgiven me for the feeding delays. The children are still negotiating.

P.P.P.S. – Jokes, the kids are way more forgiving than Bob!